Im doing me no more strangling around . yeuppp SIO in saturday. cant wait for the after party im surei that im calling in.  deuces bitches.

At the finest level of my being,
you’re still with me.
we still look at each other,
at that level beyond sight.
we talk and laugh with each other,
in a place beyond words.
we still touch each other,
on a level beyond touch.
we share time together in a place,
where time stands still.
we are still together,
on a level called love.
but i cry alone for you,
in a place called reality.
[richard lepinsky] chicken soup for the grieving soul

the word after everything thats happen ” IGNORE” 

its like effort is not being put into action, “IGNORE” is the answer. i guess thats how it works . FUCK.

I come across with very devastating understanding on where i stand on this affinity.

i never thought i could encounter such reviling character that will indulge me into such disbelief. although i kept my cool on the low but  my temper sometimes rise when i see something that triggers it, “Im not dumb  for you to fool me around”.

Things like this must be kept  ”special” but how would i know im being left in the closet and just use it when no ones around? i do not have a “use me when you need me” sign in my shirt. 

I also do not use the same excuses twice that just makes it very suspicious. well im doing me  and this affair is just too funny to me because it happen to me the exact month of last year, so i guess its just seasonal? i would want to break that barrier but how can i if the other character do not have the guts to support. I dont have needs i keep myself on a SPECIAL NOTE. call me old fashion but thats how i run my business.